"Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't".
Finn is not so tentatively scheduled to head back to the MSPCA on Wednesday, he definitely is. He has transport at 9:00am, and of course we're getting a snowstorm. I won't be able to be there to see him off (hubby will), which is probably better. I am doing a long write up and all of the things that have happened so that they will have an accurate history. Holy crap horse, you've really been a mess these past two years.
I have finally started telling people that he is going back: my farrier, barn manager, barn owners, barn friends, vet, etc. The overwhelming consensus, and what I hear most often is "good for you". I think that means good for me to be strong enough to do this. Vet called me the other day to check on me/him, and when I told her I was sending him back, she said she's certain that he will find a wonderful companion home. He's extremely lovable, goofy, and sweet, part of the reason I've had so much trouble letting go.
I'm feeling much better about this situation. What I've really been thinking lately is I can't wait to enjoy going up to the barn again.
I actually have a PPE on a horse scheduled for tomorrow that I'm possibly interested in. Not getting my hopes up. I'm doing an extensive PPE on every horse that I'm interested in, and getting insurance on my next horse the day they step off the trailer.